Journal: ..Life.

The same thing that Happend to her, happend to me as well. When I was 15, I'd still go to Samuel Gompers High School. I was Suffering alot of stress, depression and alot of pain due to that school and life itself. I wanted to just drift away, away from everyone, from life, from grief, away from everything that caused me so Much pain and misery. But, When I was gonna just leave life forever, I met a girl that I Kinda got into a crush. I felted something that I got new at it, and it was love. I started to talk to her, I always draw her anime pictures, her favorite ones. I always give her a goodbye hug and a hug. I found out, that she was taken by someone already. The fact that I met someone that I really like, happend to just shatter like that. I Realize now that I didnt have no use for life. My life got into a fatal heartbreak that would never be healed ever again. I Went home, locked my room door and sit on the floor and leaned on the corner, my head went down looking at the floor with misery. Nothing Never gonna change this pain I have inside of me. The love that I like shattered, parents screamed at me, friends betrayed me and all I can think about is Pain and suffering. When I got tired, I heard voices in my head. I couldnt take the voices telling me horrible things about my fate; I started to lose it. I began punching the wall as hard as I can, My hands were bleeding. I hit the door, broke the glass cup, even wrecked the room. I layed down on the floor, I only said "...I had enough..." and thats when I cut my self. Letting the blood ease the pain I was having inside of me. I couldnt take this anymore so I had to. I blame myself from doing this things to myself.

Jounral: If I had a Super Power.

If I had a Super power, it would be the rose of illusions. Well the rose of illusions is a illusion if a Rose that I held will be falling to the ground or a pedal breaks. Obviously When a Simple little pedal from my rose breaks, it would trigger a sudden illusion that can cause blindness, or Death. when a Rose drops, I glare towards a person, when a pedal drops, the person would enter the world of torture and death without them glaring the guy getting tortured. His real body may stand their, but in his mind, My Illusion is killing him in his mind. While hes getting slash, tortured, smashed, stabbed, his real body wont even show an inch of blood anywhere; When the illusion vanishes, the man would fall down, dying their like a helpless corpse. His body died because of the illusion which killed him in his mind. They say when the person dies in the illusion, you die right their in reality.

Journal: Favorite bands, Music, and genres.

One of My Most favorite musics, bands, and genres that I like the most is something to do with rock, metal, black and death metal; Reason why I like those musics, bands and genres only is because of all the tention, all the psychotic vocals from the band, all of the rock'n from their highest Contemned, that makes the world of rock and metal come alive. Some of the favorite bands that I really listen to even though its rock is Breaking Benjamin, Skillet, Systems of a Down, My Chemical Romance, Hinder, Cold, Crossfade, Sum41, Godsmack, Drowning Pool, Linkin Park, P.O.D, Saliva, The 69 EYES, and Many More rock bands to add to the list. Rock is not all Devilish; Some rock musics and bands are go with the genres Hardcore, Hard Rock, Thrash Rock, Techno Rock, Soft Rock, Alternative Rock, and just regular Alternative. The bands I like from the Metal side of the rock/metal family is Disarmonia Mundi, Disturbed, Dragonforce, Rob Zombie, Anthrax, Killswitch Engage, H.I.M., Rev Theory (Album: Light it Up 2008), SlipKnot, Dimmu Borgir, Bloodsimple, Anterior, Symphorce, All That Remains, and everything else I like about the metal side of the family name of Rock/Meal. The Music I Likes From all is everything. Mostly all I do is listen to everything that is rock, metal related. I just love everything about metal and rock, all of the bands, albums, genres, the rock'n, the screams on the vocals. I Mostly Like Howard Jones Screams from the New Killswitch Engage that was now new in 2003 since the original vocalist Jesse Leach Left the band. This is one of the Most Favorite Bands, Musics, and genres I like.

Why Do I always Cut Myself..

†The Reason why I cut Myself recently is because of all the Stress I've been having for the last year. Since the days I've been suffering with everything, people, family, school, etc etc; Everything is 100% Not good for me in this world. That is the reason why I cut myself every time I get into Stage 5-9 of my Emotional Stress. When i Cut myself, I use anything like a razorblade or a knife, and just slit myself. The Slit is mean by cutting or clean cut; What I do is that I cut everywhere around my arm.

April 2009: In this month of this year, I was alittle stress because of everything that was happening to me. Then all of a Sudden, I get into an Argument with my brother, me and him was arguing fiercely and then I got really pissed. The Stress rised up to Stage 5, which meant by the bad sage of the emotional stress. I went to the kitchen, grabbed the knife that had shark teeth on the bottom, and just slit my wrist. My Mind dissapeared, my eyes stayed glanced towards the blood Dripping down the floor like a pool. A Pool of blood appear as soon as I cutted my wrist. My Body was feeling like Passing out, My mind and eyes were scribbling like I was gonna just fall and die on the floor, leaving my helpless body to the floor. When My Parents saw the blood, she was furious and hit my brother, she said if Something bad happend to me, she'd kill my brother. -*sighs*- guess I havent died..the stress vanished and I returned to my normal state....

June 2009: The day when the summer began, at least, thats what I thought the summer would be. As Soon as I came home from school, I had alittle bad time because of all the time i had an argument with the security of the train. I felt like i was gonna hurt someone with rage and anger, soon I layed down against the floor, just thinking should I start killing people, yes or No. The Other stuffs I had in rage was against my parents, They screamed at me and I screamed at them back, soon as they hit me with something, the stress level reached to level 5.1 again. I then went to the bathroom, and cut myself again, watching the blood fall and drip; I think hide it with a Butterfly stitches and covered it and told them that I Fell and hit the pole.

Guess Cutting myself....is My emotional Stressed Hobby...

Character Information: Itachi Uchiha

Name: Itachi Uchiha

Age: 18

Clan: Uchiha Clan (Former), Akatsuki

Height: 175.2cm

Weight: 57.1kg

.::Physical::.
Appearance: Despite his status as an infamous shinobi, his appearance was not the most intimidating, apart from the intensity of his eyes. While living in Konoha, he would regularly have a gentle and caring look in his eyes, especially directed towards his younger brother. After joining Akatsuki, he would regularly have a stern look to them. He was a fairly tall shinobi, whose basic appearance was very much like the rest of his clan.

Hair/Style/Color: He, like all members of his clan, possessed dark grey eyes, and also had black hair that hung near his cheeks to frame his face. He also had the addition of a long ponytail in the back of his hair (which he obscured with his Akatsuki cloak after joining the organization). Being brothers, Itachi and Sasuke had a similar appearance, but with subtle differences. Itachi's hair color appeared slightly duller and with a softer flow to it, without the spiky style at the back. His skin was also slightly darker. Itachi's most distinguishing characteristics were the long pronounced creases under his eyes.

Clothing Style: When he lived in Konoha, his casual clothes would consist of a black shirt with a large Uchiha clan symbol on the back of it, and black pants with a weapons pouch strapped to them. When on duty, he would wear the traditional ANBU uniform, although he was never shown wearing a mask. As a member of Akatsuki, he wore the traditional Akatsuki cloak, and usually kept the center of it buttoned down. After his cloak was incinerated by Sasuke's Kirin during their fight in Part II, it was revealed that he still wore his casual clothes underneath it. Like almost all members of Akatsuki, he wore the headband of his home village, Konoha, with a line gouged through it, to symbolize his broken ties with the village (although, secretly, he was actually still loyal to his village).

.::Abilities::.
Jutsu Master: Itachi was a master of all the Uchiha clan's techniques, along with the Sharingan, and had great prowess with all of the three main types of jutsu. When battling against Kakashi, Kurenai, and Asuma, Kakashi commented that Itachi wasn't fighting with even half of his strength. Itachi was also noted to be very fast, particularly with his hand movements. This extended to weaving hand seals and throwing weapons, as he was able to reveal a set of shurikens with one hand and then suddenly attack the opponent with a form of Ninjutsu. In terms of mobility, he is able to close considerable distances fast enough to appear like teleporting. His speed was such that neither Sasuke nor Kakashi, who are both very adept at using the Sharingan, could follow his movements in either case. Itachi's techniques also often involved usage of crows, both in ninjutsu and genjutsu. This is amongst other seen with his creation of a clone that dissolves into crows and using crows to hide shurikens in them. Despite his extensive use of genjutsu, Itachi appeared to be quite skilled in taijutsu as well, as demonstrated when he easily dispatched three fellow Uchiha and when he stopped Sasuke's Chidori with one hand and brutally beat the latter during their reunion in Konoha.

Sharingan: Being of the Uchiha Clan, and as noted by Kakashi, Itachi was a true successor of the Sharingan Eye From a stationary position, he would study an opponent's movements with his Sharingan and respond accordingly, often with a genjutsu. He could cast a genjutsu by merely pointing at or looking at someone, and could similarly turn an opponent's genjutsu against them with Demonic Illusion: Mirror Heaven and Earth Change. Itachi had trained so much with his eyes that he had reached the stage where he could have his Sharingan activated all the time, with minimal drain on his chakra levels.

Mangekyo Sharingan: Itachi possessed the Mangekyo Sharingan, which increased his already great power, and enabled him to use his most powerful techniques. With his left eye, he could use Tsukuyomi, a genjutsu that traps an opponent's mind in an illusionary world, torturing them for what seems like days in a matter of seconds. With his right eye he could use Amaterasu, a ninjutsu which allowed him to create a black flame that he could direct by moving his eye to burn through seemingly anything in its path, including fire itself. His final technique was Susanoo, a technique that manifested itself as a spectral being, labelled as the "Raging God of Battle" in the databook. It wielded the Totsuka Sword, an ethereal sword with the ability to seal anything it pierces into the gourd that serves as its hilt, and Yata's Mirror, a shield that can reflect any attack. Zetsu, a fellow Akatsuki member, stated that Itachi's mastery of the Sharingan, combined with the legendary weapons of Susanoo, made him invincible. Despite his mastery of the Mangekyo Sharingan, Itachi suffered greatly from its side effects. His eyesight would worsen as time pass since the awakening of the Mangekyo Sharingan, and the degradation would only increase after every time he uses it, which would lead him to eventually go blind from its power, with his Sharingan forever sealed away. By the time Itachi activated his Mangekyo during his final fight with Sasuke, his vision had becomed horribly blurred, seeing Sasuke as a bunch of hazy lines. Itachi was so close to blindness that, by the time he activated Susanoo in his final fight, both Sharingan eyes had become almost blind, and had turned white. However, he was still able to perform his own Fūinjutsu in his last moments.

.::Spells, Attacks::.

Amaterasu: Named after the Shinto Sun Goddess, Amaterasu is the highest level Fire Release technique, as well as one of the most powerful ninjutsu in existence. It is said to represent the "Material World and Light" (物質界と光, Busshitsukai to Hikari), the antipode to Tsukuyomi, a genjutsu of similar power and a fellow Mangekyo Sharingan dōjutsu, said to represent the "Spiritual World and Darkness" (精神界と闇, Seishinkai to Yami). Itachi Uchiha was the first person to be shown to be able to use Amaterasu. He later gave the power to Sasuke Uchiha.

Tsukuyomi: Named after the Shinto Moon god, Tsukuyomi is one of the most powerful genjutsu in existence. It is unique to the Uchiha clan and only those with the Mangekyo Sharingan can perform it. It is said to represent the "Spiritual World and Darkness" (精神界と闇, Seishinkai to Yami), the antipode to Amaterasu, a ninjutsu of similar power and fellow Mangekyō Sharingan dōjutsu, said to represent the "Material World and Light" (物質界と光, Busshitsukai to Hikari). sukuyomi requires eye contact to be performed. When executed, the jutsu traps the target in an illusionary world that is completely controlled by the user. While it only takes a few seconds to complete in the real world, the user can make it seem as if days have passed for the target. Depending on the user's whim, they can either torture their target for what seems like days on end, or make them relive a traumatic event over and over. When the jutsu ends the resultant psychological trauma will render the target unable to fight for an extensive period of time, and possibly suffer a complete mental breakdown.

Demonic Illusion: Burning Paper Body: This genjutsu requires the Sharingan and eye contact to be activated. The illusion traps the victim in a dark empty space where their body is made of paper that burns from toe to head while the user is watching. The purpose of this jutsu is to use the target's vision of their new form to reduce his/her dexterity, making it harder for the victim to battle or perform hand seals.

Dusk Crow Genjutsu: This unknown genjutsu can trap a victim in an illusion with no eye contact, similar to Ephemeral. The genjutsu traps the victim in a torrent of crows, leaving them at the users mercy.

.::Story::.

History: Itachi was born into the Uchiha clan and was praised by all as the best of his generation - a genius above all others. Even by the standards of the battle-adept Uchiha clan, Itachi's prowess far outshone them. However, not even his family, friends, or teachers could understand him. When he was only 4, Itachi had already witnessed countless lives lost due to the Third Great Shinobi World War, which emotionally traumatized him and turned him into a pacifist. At age 7, he graduated from the Ninja Academy at the top of his class after only one year, mastered the Sharingan at age 8, passed the Chunin Exams at age 10, and became an ANBU Captain at age 13. According to Madara Uchiha, Itachi also had a lover, whom he killed during the Uchiha clan massacre. He was praised highly by his father, who saw the family's future in Itachi, hence neglecting his other son - Itachi's younger brother, Sasuke. However, during this time Itachi showed great affection towards his little brother, Sasuke, and even encouraged his father to come to the Academy when Sasuke was enrolled, something their dad had otherwise forgotten, by saying that he would not go to an important mission that would establish Itachi a place in the ANBU ranks, otherwise. When the Uchiha began planning to overthrow Konoha, Itachi, as an ANBU, was tasked with spying on the village. Knowing that a coup d'etat would only lead to another Ninja War, Itachi began spying on the Uchiha instead, passing on information to the Third Hokage and the other Konoha elders. After this he began to act strangely, not attending the clan meetings, speaking out against the clan, and becoming the prime suspect for the murder of his best friend, Shisui Uchiha. The clan lost hope in Itachi, and his father began shifting his focus to Sasuke instead. Meanwhile, the Third's attempts to negotiate a bloodless end to hostilities between the two parties were proving ineffective, so, against the Third's wishes, Danzo and the Konoha Council ordered Itachi to wipe out the Uchiha. Before the fateful night arrived, Itachi discovered the existence of Madara Uchiha, who was attempting to rekindle the flames of war in Konoha. In return for not attacking Konoha, Itachi offered to help Madara claim vengeance against the Uchiha for turning their backs on him decades earlier. Madara agreed. Itachi slaughtered his entire clan overnight, sparing only Sasuke. Sasuke's life was worth more than the village to Itachi, and he could not follow through with the orders to kill him as well. Instead, he made himself out as a villain, who had killed their innocent family only to test his abilities. By doing so, he wanted Sasuke to take vengeance on him and become a hero to Konoha, thus redeeming the Uchiha name. He tortured Sasuke with his Mangekyo Sharingan, and encouraged him to become strong enough to kill him and avenge their family. Hoping that his beloved little brother would someday be powerful enough to kill him, Itachi left the village as a traitor. Knowing that Konoha would still want to eliminate Sasuke, Itachi pleaded with the Third Hokage to keep Sasuke safe. He also threatened Danzo to not harm Sasuke or risk him revealing everything he knew about Konoha's secrets to enemy countries. Sasuke's safety was therefore secured, and Itachi returned to his original plan of becoming infamous for his slaughter of the Uchiha. Itachi joined Akatsuki in order to keep an eye on the organization, along with Madara Uchiha, in case either ever acted against Konoha, all the while planning for his death at Sasuke's hands. While a member of Akatsuki, Itachi was approached by Orochimaru, who tried to steal his body to gain the Sharingan. Itachi trapped him in a genjutsu and severed his left hand as punishment, forcing Orochimaru to flee the organization. Sometime after joining Akatsuki, Itachi later helped recruit Deidara, Orochimaru's replacement, by beating him in battle, after which Deidara swore vengeance against Itachi.

Journal: Emotional Stress

The Reason Why I am Feeling stress right now is the issues I'm having With everything in My Life that is going wrong, terribly wrong. I've been having an emotional Stress since May, 4, 2008. Since that year I've been having a emotional stress, against everything. I Dont know If I can control or Fight against this stress, this Stress hurts, it hurts. I always say to myself, Why Do I hate the World, Why do People hate me, Why do they treat me Like an enemy. I wanna Know why, WHY!!..., Why am I suffering this Pain. Parents scream at me, Alot of shit stresses me out always, school stresses me even more then ever, I Cant TAKE IT ANYMORE!!. The More stress I have, the More Im gonna hit to the top stage of this stress. Some people say that the Stress last to stage 1-10. Right Now Im in Stage 3 of this Emotional Stress, When each teen reaches to stage 5 of the emotional stress, they would have to cut themselves around the wrist, or areas of the arm. If they reach to Stage 10 of the Emotional stress, They Commit Suicide and Take their own life away as soon as possible. I Don't know If Im gonna take this stress any Longer, if this keeps up even more, I would give up my whole life and just kill myself. Leaving my Cold, Lifeless body on the floor of the ground, waiting for something to take me to eternal rest...forever. The only people that can calm me from my stress from ever regaining to the next level is my babii Ashley, and My Best Friend Terrance. Those 2 are the only once that can calm me down from this never ending pain Im having right Now.

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Journal: Questions.

Dear Teacher; i have some questions to ask you about your personal life. What Month, Day, year were you born in, since I was born on 3,15,93. I want to know what day month and year you were born in. Next question I wanted to ask is, whats your favorite foods. The Foods I like and always eat are rice, beans, chicken, burgers, apples, bananas, grapes, etc etc, I know you gotta like something that you like about foods. The other questions Im willing to ask is; Do you have a gf. I have a gf name Ashley Rowe, Shes my baby and Im her babii and me and her love eachother so Much, so Now I wanna Know if you have a gf to love and care forever. Their are a few more questions I was willing to ask you, What race are you in, since My race is Puerto Rico, so now what is your race. Judging by how you look, I would say that you must be irish or White =P. >_> ...A Few more I wanna ask but Now I got nothing to ask, OH WAIT!!!!, I got a few more to ask you. In your Personal life, Did you ever wanna go to a Vacation to somewhere that is fancy like Jamaica, Puerto Rico, China, Japan, Germany, Spain, Brazil, California, Virginia, anything :D. And thats it ;D.

journal: Whats school good for.

School is good for somethings; School is good for education. Education is the 1st thing that anyone needs to do. Its passing grades and achieving something. If anyone including me, wats to have a job, house, car, anything that is need to pass and work for your life, its school. School that needs to be done to pass. Some people spend time in school, to meet with other people, friends, anyone. School has a few programs, each of the programs needs to be done to achieve. Everyone needs to be here on time, to get credits. Credits are the 1 chance to graduate and getting a diploma, Diploma's are the only thing you need to leave the school, and follow your dreams as a sucessor. Diploma's are also good enough to go to college. The thing that is mostly I thing that is good for is computers, computers are good for researching, journals, working, activities, blogsm etc etc. These are the things I think why that school is good for something.

Journal: Whats school good for.

School is good for somethings; School is good for education. Education is the 1st thing that anyone needs to do. Its passing grades and achieving something. If anyone including me, wats to have a job, house, car, anything that is need to pass and work for your life, its school. School that needs to be done to pass. Some people spend time in school, to meet with other people, friends, anyone. School has a few programs, each of the programs needs to be done to achieve. Everyone needs to be here on time, to get credits. Credits are the 1 chance to graduate and getting a diploma, Diploma's are the only thing you need to leave the school, and follow your dreams as a sucessor. Diploma's are also good enough to go to college. The thing that is mostly I thing that is good for is computers, computers are good for researching, journals, working, activities, blogsm etc etc. These are the things I think why that school is good for something.